Sometimes, I come off my meds and it can be for varying reasons. But the one that never changes is my visceral need to ‘feel’. My medication is wonderful stuff. It keeps me from being actively suicidal or embarking on high-risk behaviour (you know, the fun stuff). It keeps me fat. It keeps me flat. It keeps me slow.
So sometimes, I stop taking them to feel again and this is what it’s like. This jagged, blunted cycle that I am for the rest of my days and nights. Dedicated to all of you who know what even some of this feels like. x